Thursday, February 13, 2014

I'm a stupid fool!

I really thought things would turn out differently.  I thought after I said my thoughts, that the minds would be changed and things would be different.  But here I am, the day before Valentine's day and a week before my birthday, and I realize that I am just a STUPID FOOL!  What was I thinking?  Why did I think it would change?  People don't change their minds.  Plain and simple.

Thursday, October 10, 2013


I know I didn't know Cory Monteith, but his passing really hit me hard. We were the same age. I look around at what I have in life, my loving husband, my beautiful daughter and our home. He didn't get to experience any of that. Watching Glee tonight, it hit me all over again. Especially when his mom was saying how when you wake up every morning you forget for a second then it all comes back. How do you go on from that? How do you continue to go day to day? How do you begin to live again? Like she said, how do you continue to parent when you don't have a child anymore? 

Rest in peace Cory. I pray your family has peace again soon. 

Sunday, July 7, 2013

What now?

I have 3 more weeks left at my job.  I have no idea what I'm going to do when this job is over.  I have no clue if I will be hired by the new company coming in.  I hate all the uncertainty of things sometimes.  I have started looking for a new job, but I'm not into it really.  I guess I'm subconsciously I'm waiting to hear back from the other company, even though I don't think they will pay me very well.

On a side note, Hailey is doing awesome!  We have an app on the iPad called Endless ABC's.  She is spelling words with it! I can't believe it.  She knows her letters but only with Endless ABC's.

That's all I've got right now.

Friday, May 31, 2013

A day in my life

I get up at 5:30 leave the house at 6:15, before seeing my little girl for the day, work for 4 hours, run for 30 minutes, eat a quick lunch, change back into work clothes, work for another 4 hours, drive home to pick my daughter, anywhere from 30-45 minutes by the way, spend 3 hours with her. Put her to bed. Take a shower, since I can't take one after my run. Spend 1 hour with my husband then it's off to bed so I can do it all over again the next day. 

Do you really want to compare how many miles you WALKED today, while you should be taking care of your kid?! 

Monday, April 15, 2013

Back to daycare (or school as Hailey calls it)

Today Hailey goes back to school as she calls it. I'm a bit worried that she's not going to do well with the potty training. The good thing is that my mom will pick her up after her exercise class so she won't be there very long. I just have my reservations about her not being with me or Shawn. I did tell her yesterday that she will be going back to school today and she got really excited and ran to the door. I guess I'm just nervous about going back to work full time and leaving her again.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

No longer a sahm

I got a new job today. I'm supposed to start tomorrow. It was a but frustrating to me the way it all happened. Apparently 2 agencies put me in and one (that I've used in the past) got the contract. The other called me and said that I got the job and didn't have the contract. I was put in the middle and it ended up with me stating which agency I want to represent me. I'm supposed to meet with the guy tomorrow but I don't know when. He was supposed to call me to schedule it, but I never got a call. I'm just stressed and now babbling.

On a potty training note, Hailey didn't do so well today. Only 1 successful potty trip and we were out at a restaurant when it happened too. But she was woke up from both her nap and the am with a very freshly wet diapers. I don't know maybe she's not quite ready yet. I have very mixed emotions about today. Happy that I have a job to start soon and Hailey peeing in a public place but stressed about tomorrow and the not so success on the potty training.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

By golly, I think she's got it!

Last night Hailey was home with daddy and forced the pee out to get her m&ms! Today we ventured out of the house and she held it the entire time we were out. She didn't want to go in her diaper. I think she is finally understanding what's going on. It's now lunch time and so far we haven't had any accidents! She even peed in the big potty today! I am so happy that she's getting it!